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Past Lives

Past Lives

This experience we call deja vu is having experienced something already without having experienced it before.  The feeling is so certain – absolutely certain – you have done this before, seen this person, this place – this is deja vu.

This occurs because deep in your unconscious, you are carrying all the memories of all your past lives.  You are not living for the first time only this life.  No.  You have lived many lives, many deaths.  Thousands  of lives and deaths.  Life is far bigger than birth and death.

Life begins at the point of your past life’s death.  When a child is born you may think this is the beginning.  This is not true – and when a man dies, it is not the end.  Your life began far before you entered your mother’s womb.  All the things that happened in lives before, all successes, frustrations, all failures, betrayals, love affairs, all experiences that were clung to, the Lord Buddha calls desire.

And when you are dying, the whole of this life will run before your eyes – before the body is leaving.  The body is not going, the mind is not going with you, the brain is not going with you, but desire released from the mind will cling to the soul and decide your future life.  Whatever you collected, what you have brought with you like a seed, that seed will become a tree, bring forth fruit, flowers, and thorns.  The whole blueprint is there in the seed.

Everybody can penetrate to past lives.  You simply need enough practice to be meditative enough to remain aware past a certain door, a certain unconscious gateway.  Once you penetrate that door, a flood of memories come rushing to you.

The significance of this is to see the karma in our lives.  It can be a great wake up.  You can see patterns as anceint as you are.  Once you see how many love affairs you have had, how you have wanted power and money and many times even attained this wealth and prestige, for thousands and thousands of years, you begin to see the endless cycle.  You have lived every every possible experience.  And the same pattern is repeating over and over.

Existence moves in a circle, not a straight line.  It is like a rotating wheel of seasons.  If one can see clearly that for many lives they have repeated the same experiences, you will come to one burning question: How to get free from the unconscious actions, unconscious imprisonment – how to awaken and break this chain of suffering over and over?  How to end the cycle of life and death?  How to become absolutely conscious?

**Over the years from my personal practice, three lives and deaths have been recalled…a small African boy drowning…a woman in France dying of lung disease..and the echoing voice of a master I met in the orient.  These events for me personally came in rushes. While sitting and entered penetrating silence, suddenly memories would flash, over and over..recall.  These memories would come for maybe two to three days and then cease coming.  It would happen spontaneously.  Then silence again.

The benefit was seeing the karma!   And the silent understanding of why so many events have come to be in this life. Understanding the tree and its fruit.

Deja Vu!  It seems I’ve done this before!

Exposing our Deepest Feelings and Vulnerabilities Takes Great Trust

To be willing to expose our deepest feelings and vulnerability takes great trust. It takes great inner strength, and courage.  Courage to know that even if the other betrays you, you will remain open. It is beautiful to trust.

Beautiful…and difficult.  But if you look deeply into the difficulty, you will see it is not exactly that you do not trust.  If you watch you will find it is simply a lack of courage.  Then things can be different.  When you know it is fear – not distrust – then you can decide to have courage.  And remember always, it is natural to feel this fear.  It exists in everybody. So don’t label yourself as a coward.  The fear of the unknown exists in everybody.  One simply has to go slowly and move beyond the known.  Having the courage to step forward…you can always come back (big smile!) (with a little knowledge and experience!)

Everyone is in this catch 22…without trust we feel fear..which again fuels our distrust and lack of courage. So the first thing we must do to be able to trust is accept yourself.  Accept yourself fully.  If you can come to accept yourself fully, you will not be concerned about respect, you will not need to worry about saving your face.   You can be trusting, just as an innocent child.  And what does it mean to be trusting as an innocent child?  It means you are showing the highest kind of love – trust.  It is the purest love.  It is uncontaminated love – uncontaminated by any desire.

But you can only do this if you are not thinking about consequences.  Do not bother about what will happen, just be willing to act according to your own being, to your own spontaneity.  You must have the courage to move beyond society and what they have told you what is ‘right’.   But if you trust someone with a motive, it is not trust…you will become fearful again. You are using the person. If you think by trusting someone you will attain happiness, then you will not be able to trust. You are using them. They have become a means to an end.  That is not very respectful. Just live moment to moment…with no outcome in mind.   Then not the outcome, but the trust is the bliss…just the act of trusting gives one a feeling of blissfullness.

With practice and experience, you will come to say anything and everything you feel, sincerely – with no concern of consequences.  Even if you feel the fear, the hesitation, all it takes is a little courage.  And you can also encourage the other person to be intimate.  Your openess will help the other person also to be open.

What you will come to find out is that not only were you feeling fear, so was the other..not only are you concerned about your weakness, but the other too has weaknesses -you will begin to feel more trusting, less as strangers.

And always remember that everything that is beautiful, precious is also only momentary.  We want to cling, hold on and make every precious moment permanent.  It simply cannot be.  Always know perfectly well that tomorrow cannot be promised.  What you know, what you share with someone is precious because it is momentary.  We become very frustrated when we try to cling.  And when we become frustrated, a distance grows between you, you begin fighting…and what was meant to be beautiful, to be moments of happiness just become one big long misery (laughing!).

But if you can become unafraid of being intimate with someone, it can become a great transformation.  You begin to become not only unafraid of the other, but most importantly, you become unafraid of yourself.  You begin to drop everything that you once were ashamed of.  You realize your own beauty.  You realize life…!

To become intimate and trust someone means that the doors of your heart are open.  It means that you welcome another to be a guest.  You are allowing each other to be innocent as children, no fear…just opening yourself to be seen, as you are.